Day 14: It's a Sunday!

Not a lot to talk about from yesterday. Went on two brisk walks with plenty of stair climbing. Had a date last night which was fun. One thing I'm noticing: the protein shake I'm using in the morning has developed a strange aftertaste, almost bitter/metallic no matter how I mix it up. I usually brush immediately afterwards anyway, but it's just odd.

I wanted to post a clarification about yesterday's blog as well regarding my Best Friend: We both made mistakes in the relationship, and there is plenty of blame to go around. It's not her fault alone. I screwed up just as badly. But that's why we wanted to work on building our friendship outside of the romantic relationship. So we can see each other in a different light and work on our individual issues that would interfere with us later on. In my case, I was putting other people's needs ahead of hers. It's ok for my daughter to be put first, but no one else should have been put in front of her. Every time we had a fight, that was the underlying cause. When I sat back and really thought about it, I saw what I had done and the guilt just ran roughshod over me. When I realized I had done that, I just sat down and cried because I knew I was wrong and I had contributed to our breaking up more than I realized. My actions and decisions cost me my love. But now I can see what I need to change and what I need to work on. What does she need to work on? I know some of that, but this blog is about me and I'm not going to violate her trust by talking about what she needs to work on in a public forum. I will talk to her directly and quietly and tell her what I think.

So as of tomorrow, I am free to add different exercises to my routine other than just walking, so I'll be hitting the workout room in the complex in addition to my walks. Nothing hard or super strenuous, just enough to keep burning fat and toning muscle. That 20 pound loss has really motivated me to keep up the progress. I think that may be what the doctors refer to as "jump starting" your weight loss. Think about it, you can try to kill yourself with diet and exercise and only lose a pound or two which is really discouraging. This surgery jump starts that weight loss with a huge loss right at the get go that just keeps going and it motivates you to keep those numbers up there with exercise as soon as you are able. I'm not expecting another 20 pound week, but any loss is good as far as I'm concerned. Let's face facts, it took me 20 years to put this weight on and it's not coming off overnight. So it's Zen Spider time. Patience is the key to winning this game.

Quick update: I just discovered that my sleeve doesn't like ground beef. I don't know if I didn't puree it enough or what, but it came back up within about two minutes of eating it. I left the rest of it alone and had some protein jello to calm my stomach. I'm going to wait until I can eat solids before I try that again. I didn't have an issue with the chili, though, so I'm a little curious as to why. I probably didn't puree it enough.

Cheerio!